Handle my heart carefully.

Rainbows, I can't find them
past the raindrops where the light bends
where the stories tell of people finding beauty
where the dark's hold lets go

If you want to smile with me,
Hold me close and lie with me
If you want to die with me
Handle my heart carefully
Make me believe you.

I've been searching dreary weather
for a cloud that's line in silver
but the rain keeps on falling
and my love, i am calling for you

If you want to smile with me,
Hold me close and lie with me
If you want to die with me
Handle my heart carefully
Make me believe you.

You can't change the hurt you've done
Please don't let us come undone
Make me forget
Make me forgive
Make me believe you.

If you want to smile with me,
Hold me close and lie with me
If you want to die with me
Handle my heart carefully
Make me believe you.
Make me believe.

"Make Me"- Kina Grannis

Question...

Why do we have to grow up? Why do we tend to create responsibility for ourselves? Why does everyone in this world have a desire to be succesful?

"17 reasons why.."

I'm finding every reason to be gone.

"City" Sara Bareilles

There's a harvest each saturday nightAt the bars filled with perfume and hitching a ride. A place you can stand for one night and get goneIt's clear this conversation ain't' doing a thing.

Cause these boys only listen to me when i sing. And i don't feel like singing tonight,all the same songs.

Here in these deep city lightsGirl could get lost tonightI'm finding every reason to be gone. Nothing here to hold on to, Could i hold you?

The situation's always the same. You got your wolves in their clothes whispering Hollywood's name. Stealing gold from the silver they see. But it's not me.

Here in these deep city lightsGirl could get lost tonightI'm finding every reason to be gone. There's nothing here to hold on to, Could i hold you?

Calling out somebody save me i feel like i'm fading away. Am i gone? Calling out somebody save me i feel like i'm fading. In these deep city lights, Girl could get lost tonight. I'm finding every reason to be gone. There's nothing here to hold on to, Could i hold on to you?

I never understood this.

so this is how it feels to have lost a very influential person in your life.
this is how it feels to keep your mind busy so that you can't think of the things that make you emotional.
this is how it feels to have a void in your mind.
this is how it feels to be in disbelief and denial.
this is how it feels to walk around without feelings.
this is how it feels to rediscover your faith.
this is how it feels to remember.
this is how it feels to really cry.
this is how it feels to be angry.
this is how it feels to miss someone.

life.

I was reminded of God's presence in our lives. I saw it in my grandmother. Its amazing how just one week could change so drastically. I love you Apu, I'll never forget what you taught us. I'll miss you everyday until I see you again. I love you.

let the wind blow through your heart...

sometimes you realize that nothing more than music pulls you out of chaos. for me amel laurriex's 'wild is the wind' really pulled me by the arm and sat me down in a quiet place. life has been hectic these past weeks, so i really enjoyed the energy of that song.

cunt.

bitch ass cunt face.