this is hard.

this whole moving on deal is hard. i should be compelled to go work out...to have that spite of making myself look better...i just don't feel that. i think i'm a little depressed or something, usually i want to go out for a jog but right now i'd rather be a couch potato. i'm sort of on the line between motivating myself to get out and "wallowing in my sorrow." lol.

i never realized why people get like this after a relationship. now i know its because you are dealing with the loss of that person; i'm depressed in that sense. i also need to stop thinking about her. like i'm always wondering if she is seeing someone or i feel like driving by her apartment to see if her car is there or not. i'm being pretty stupid too...i've been a total facebook whore by checking up on all the pages she had commented on just to figure out what she is up to. wtf is wrong with me?

most people say that getting over this comes with time and its just so hard to be patient..

i have fallen in love with the poem "To Earthward, by Robert Frost. This is an exerpt that i enjoy the most.

" The hurt is not enough

I long for weight and strength

To feel the earth as rough

To all my length. "